I was reminded the other day about how easy it is to fall into discontentment. It all started with my self-centered reflections of the things I wished I had done in my life. You know the kind. It's starts innocently enough. "I wish I knew how to...", which then turns into "Why didn't I learn when..." which can be a very destructive downward spiral of "what ifs" and "I wish this was different.."
We all do it. Here's where my mind wandered that day:
"I wish I had taken voice lessons in college. I also wish I would have taken a music-writing class. Well dang, I should have just majored in music. Then I would have more in common with more people and I could sing and write music and be famous and, and, and..."
It just kept going on from there. But then, I stopped myself. And I took an inventory of what I DID do, back when I COULD have been majoring in music. I majored in business finance instead. I got married to guy who probably wouldn't have wanted to hang out with a music major ;) If I hadn't married that guy, we wouldn't have the two awesome kids we have. And I would not know anything about the supporting role I've assumed in running a business for that guy. Because music majors don't learn accounting, taxes, banking, or budgeting.
And THAT is why I didn't major in music. Took me about 11 years to realize it. Wait, no. I knew it all along. I just forgot while I was wallowing in discontent.
It's great when God stops you in your tracks of self-delusion and shows WHY you are where you are. And I am where I am because it's the right place to be, and the steps that led me here were the right steps to take.
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